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☁ elaine elaine elaine
☁ ✖uefen aka ahxue is my name. ❤
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Sunday, November 27, 2011

MAY,THIS.END.LIKE.HOW.I.THOUGHT.OF.

i dont like it. i dont like it . i dont like it.

I dont like where there is UTs here and there.

Look at upcoming schedule.

Monday - Uts till 5.30pm

Tuesday - Workshop until 6.30pm

Wednesday *& thursday work until 10 ++PM.

And got school again. New chapter. X( * coding again *

and so , Assignment two will be out again like soon when Evaluation just finish.

deardear planning to go genting next month. <3

Issue 1 : But i was thinking if parent allows me to go a not.

Issue 2 : How much do we need to save up to ? like how much the traveling fee and the hotel price.

Issue 3 : when should be go ? maybe end of the week of dec which is nearer to his birthday.

I'm having a bad headache.

I feel like vomiting. been vomiting .Am i giving myself too much STRESS ?

Kinda worried for assignment that time .AND My menses actually delayed until my evaluation was over.

I dont KNOW ! WHATEVER.

my mind is like a mess now. !

@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@#$%#$%^&*(*&^%$#$%^&*&^%$ !

can i scream out loud loud. phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. kinda done with revision i suppose ? I read through almost all the 6p and UNDERSTAND the key point and hopefully it's easy . roarssssssss.. * if you know how to do your assignment and you will know how to do for your Uts * hopefully that statement will really come true. my heaD HURTS BADLY.

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Had a good day with my BF yesterday ! He applied leave and accompany almost the whole day.thanks dear for waking up early as he said. Loves <3 Love his shoulder . needs his shoulder to rely on whenever i'm stressful,i'm sad,i'm happy and i need more love from him. went to watch already famous with him . that show super funny lol. wo shi yong peng lai de ah jiao. !!! it's a good good movie.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

10:20 PM

Saturday, November 26, 2011

WHAT.MAKES.YOU.STRONG

It's weekends and finally i got a day off today.

been taking NPL and absent.

Had a bad worse day yesrerday .

I had my menstruation and I had a bad cramps. Went out with mother to tampines was really a bad decision that i ever made. I couldn't smile as it's super pain like shit. And the 969 bus is super long and we had to wait for quite long.

Reach home around 7 plus and had dinner. * few bites* and i'm full with it.ate my medicine And went to sleep like around 8plus while watching my drama.

Cramps hurts . cramps hurts . cramps hurt .

no mood.

shall stop here.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

10:31 AM

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

WANT.TO.LIE.AT.YOUR.SHOULDER

well well, didn't went to school.

didn't feel really well due to the tiredness of working and schooling.

super lazy to go see doctor when i can just take a good rest and eat some panadol.

Plans for quitting has been decided. I will be submitting my resign form on this sunday.

And i will be stress free after two weeks later.

When things are not appreciated , people take you as granted and so be it.

Enduring for months is enough.

Rumors and bad mouth is really very irritating and annoying.

When people became so selfish and only think of themselves so be it.

I'm no going to care so much and as when certain people told me before.

We're part timer and why should we bother so much .

inter-conflict that makes people want to leave.

ain't a well paid also.

And i dont like the cycle over there like seriously. I miss those days where we have a lot of cashier a good people that we will work as a team and eat tgt , off job gtg. I realized people could just leave and leave those shit for us to clear. Well, we are getting the same pay and why are we doing something more? Everyone can't wait to go home.

Some days i couldn't imagine i could survive till so long in that such tiredness in my job. weekends i'm all alone doing cleaning , cashiering and even tidy up the cashier. It's freaking tiring compared to last time.

whatever it is. I'm going to leave that burden and stressful .

Had some cold wars with deardear yesterday. All i could answer him was nothing which makes him feel so unimportant and unsecured. I just feel like hugging him and yet i didn't . Hug panda awhile , hug bear awhile till he sat beside me and i just can't endure anmore and hug him and start crying. And yes, i do miss him a lot. And every one is the same . " will have the feeling of * afraid that any passby may just snatch off your bf/gf *" so do i and so do my bf.

Bf's shoulder is always so comfortable and i always love to nua nua one. BF went over meet me in school. so sweet of him. walk so far just to come and find me. well , thought he's super bored yet he didnt complain or what. It reminds me when he's having his exams and i accompany him to woodlands library with his friends. He's afraid i'm damn bored and pass me his phone so that i could tumblr until he's done with his revision.

Shall continue my drama and also resting.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

1:56 PM

Monday, November 21, 2011

I wanted to skip class !
But I manage to wake uppppppppp .....
Damn sleepy ;0 !
My dear bf so damn cute lol . He video panda lepak lepak and send it to be through what's app ! Soooo super cute of him lol !!!!

Later on gotta work again ! Damn sian damn bored damn no mood !

Roars! Cashier two again ,__________, shall leave before Christmas or end of it ? My pay didn't increase ! =.= weekdays like a cheap labour . Sometimes I wonder why these staff still working weekdays when they only paid us 5.24 which is like low and we need to work so hard !

The funny staff was they want to increase sales but little labour . It's not the same as last year . Stop comparing last year and this year . Last year you have 11 cashier staff and this year you have 5 cashier staff . So just shut up and stop complain about cashier staff

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

9:13 AM

Sunday, November 20, 2011

That urge of quitting right now right now is back again . Damn it !

I'm tired of waking up 7++ each day except one of the lesson . Im tired of working 3 days per week and I'm tired of mis lesson . Demanding pricky faci that I have . I got no rest day ;((

Though working stop me for all my laziness but I'm really tired of thinking this and that. I want quit ! Perhaps I shall push the quitting day earlier . So that I could enjoy my 2 weeks of holidays and jan will be another busy and tough month . Ut2 on dec and Chinese new year on jan as well as ut3 on feb and attachment too .

In another hand , not much time spend with my bf due to assignment . UTs and work . Thinking of what motivates me to work was to buy iPhone and now I got it . I have nothing to care much except of the monthly phone bills . I'm sure when I spend less on clothes and shoes and also on food I will survive without work .

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

9:41 AM

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I'm on my way to work .
The train is kinda so packed yet the place where is stand ain't that crowded
Groups of young girls that seems to be secondary reminds me the days I'm with my girlfriend where we will meet out and go shopping .

Well,
4Uts down and left one more to go .

This 2 weeks . Assignments and work and studies is kinda killer. Good thing is that I took 2 days of NPL well I really can't spare time for work .
Assignment is somehow completed yet still have to double check of there is any modification needed.

The sweet moment ;
Though I have been busy with this and that . BF still so understanding and give me moral support . I'm kinda worried that he will complains and somehow a bad quarrel may happens . But in fact it didn't happen! Thanks BF.

Next mon and Wednesday will be working . And Friday will be evaluation for assignment and I'm the first team 1 ;))

Was planning schedule . Hoping he was beside me and I could discuss with them . But it's okay. Christmas eve . Christmas fall on the weekends as per normal I'm not going to work and also deardear's birthday is just next month .

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

9:16 AM

Thursday, November 17, 2011

So tired so sleepy .
I'm using iPhone to blog like a Chio only !!!
Meet Deardear just now . Though I'm really exhausted yet still meet him .

I still hug jacket to sleep without failing . Jiayous for the rest of 3 modules .

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

12:23 AM

Sunday, November 13, 2011

HAD MY REVISION on my NPL sunday .

went to NTUC with brother in the afternoon just to top up snacks and drinks and etc.

We spend like 40 + over on food.

Weekends going to end soon.

And UTs are on their way . =,=

Am i ready for Uts ? the answer is NO ! Though i have done my revision.

Meet deardear saturday afternoon.

Kinda miss him . #seriously miss him like tons much many !

As he went malaysia on monday night time and back singapore at friday evening time.

Had a awesome saturday day with him though he's sick.

we went to SIM LIM square to buy my acer power adaptor !!!

Thanks deardear for accompany down even though he's sick.

My jelly bean-curd boyfriend

deardear like super damn damn tall uh ?

or is it too long didn't see him ? hmmms.

Brought instant ramen to his house and eat.

THAT"S A BAD DECISION !

RAMEN wasn't that nice ! DU!

watch PUSSY CAT with deardear .

AND AND !

That hug of his, is so super warm and comfortable.

I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE . ( BA GOOODSSSSSS)

maybe i should wear more and more less uh uh .

deardear : horhor ! trying to seduce other guys is it ?

HAN NAH! wear more more cloth. <3

deardear told me that he going pub last night ?

not going to care care careeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

he's sick and still want go out . = |

but in the end he didn't go out.

after send me home then go home rest rest !

it's been so long that i have blogged.

gotta be wars with UTs and also assignment.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

11:19 PM

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

that speechless moment .

it's another wednesday again .

Another day. Another month.

Assignment is out already yet i havnt even start much.

Had to go work later on.

It don't rocks at all.

work has been killer and boring and sucky .

Looking at the plastic bag.

DAMN IT.

Enduring . Enduring and enduring .

not going to bothered. not going to raise up anything and just shut up and work.

another one more plus month to go on.

And i'm damn free .

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star ✰

I cl0se My EyEs AnD HoPiNg YoU'Re bEsIdE mE. .

2:04 PM

it don't matter if the road gets rough,I know you will be there.